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2009-05-19T23:31:00.003+08:00

i want my mommy.

2009-05-17T23:12:00.001+08:00

hello.
i just came home from j8. my mom decided that its time she spent sometime outside of house. so she brought me out to shop:D
spent some really nice time with her. and i really really got to know her better; we just kept talking.

im really scared all this will end when i tell her about the marks.
God. please dont let that happen.

sad goodbyes.

2009-05-17T14:50:00.006+08:00

hello:D just had a nice chat with cherie.
and i realised she's right.
staying in the past cant be of much help.
and i realise, sometimes living in the past hurts so much.
cos you know it wont ever be the same again.

like what cherie said,
" let it go so that God can put new hopes into your hands
there are so many more people Amanda can help..
by letting some of what you desire most, is like putting on a pair of spectacles
everything comes into a sharper focus and green blobs of landscapes will suddenly become the wonderful creation of the flora and fauna which God has created."

hey cherie dont worry. ill bid the past goodbye. i wont forget it, but ill focus on the present.
~~but its gonna be hard.~~

sisters for life.

2009-05-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

i miss you so much.
i miss the time we spent together.
the many laughs, often just because we felt like it.
i miss telling you secrets, secrets that only you knew.
i miss gathering at the carpark and sharing stuff nobody else knows.
i miss having the many phone calls with you, or conference late at night.
i miss crapping with you.
i miss going to camps with you.
i miss serving with you.
i miss poking and tickling you.
i miss screaming and laughing with you.
i miss zhi high-ing with you.
i miss passing notes in sermon to you.
i miss that 2006 christmas. and the one before that.

and i remember when i needed someone there for me, you were there.
i remember that day at orchard, when my mom was in hospital having an op.
when i cried because of that, you comforted me.

church is just so different without you.
i tried to get used to it.
but i cant deny everything's changed.
everything.
i miss you so much.

3 years.

2009-05-16T22:43:00.001+08:00

oh great.
some things are just not worth it.
not worth it at all.

People get ready - Human Nature

2009-05-16T12:04:00.001+08:00

2009-05-14T20:31:00.002+08:00

im seriously getting more depressed every day.
life been suckish. with lots of Cs and 1 Ds.
and; whatever people say hurt. whether they meant it or not.
it may be a passing comment or just some joke, but what difference does it make?
people are still mean.and they say mean stuffs.
and there's stil ptm next fri.
and im dreading it.
school is stressing and life is boring and empty.

" So you make your face a mask.
A mask that hides your face.
A face that hides the pain.
A pain that eats your heart.
A heart nobody knows. "

and hey darling, goodbye.

Still have a heart

2009-05-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

hello:D
sth embarrassing happened today during HCL.
we had to chose an article and talk about it.
and then i chose an article about mother's day.
and during the presentation almost cried.
think i scared the teacher cos i was talking about my mom's cancer.
i havent cried about it in a while.
i just dont know what happened to me during HCL.
was it what people called "breakdowns"?
i have no idea.
but im quite sure that was caused by the overwhelming sense of sadness and guilt about my chem and other sub. because i havent told my mom yet. and the fact that there's a ptm next fri.
and also because life isnt that all good nowadays.

and hey, i realised that you arent that bad, thanks for the help anyways.

2009-05-10T19:18:00.000+08:00

the gala dinner just started.
it just started.

2009-05-10T12:32:00.001+08:00

*sigh* i just cant stand it that im not going tonight.

"I'll be actin' through my tears
Guess you'll never know
That I should win an Oscar for this scene I'm in"

2009-05-10T10:08:00.002+08:00

hello. im still pretty bummed out that i cant go parent's night. its like the most biggest and important thing the church's gonna organise this year. and its not like im not free. while everybody's there celebrating, ill be at home stoning.
maybe people would even forget about me.

since young, ive always wondered.
if i arent there, would people even know im not there?
if i just disappear, would people even care?
when im dead and have a funeral, would people even bother to come?

sometimes,people in this world arent what you think they are.

2009-05-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

what's the use of it all?
people dont even appreciate it at all.
its just like you're as invisible as the wallpaper around the room.

2009-05-09T22:23:00.003+08:00

dear friend

you've taught me load of things.

ive learnt not to trust anyone anymore; because no matter how hard people promised, or say they swear not to tell, it doesnt matter. because it'll still end up the wrong way round.

i've also learnt that people who we call friends arent as nice as we think. they make empty promises, they talk bad about you, they hurt you because they dont think about how you would feel before they act.

you've taught me that close friends drift apart. maybe now, you'll tell each other everything but then after some time, you'll just become some hi-bye friend. or maybe not even friends.

you used to be someone i can really confide to; someone who i can trust and talk to everyday. but now. it all changed.

humans are complex creatures.
love, amanda.

No.

2009-05-03T22:44:00.001+08:00

what if i told you i hated you and wanted you out of my life?

2009-05-02T22:16:00.003+08:00

just came back from church; feeling quite upset?
i dont know. life's been feeling pretty empty and depressing.

worst. there's school on monday after a longlong weekend.

2009-05-01T12:32:00.002+08:00

HELLO:D
im pretty stressed now a days.
but 17 again was great! haha.
it was nice meeting you nic soh. ive heard a lot about ya.
and zac efron's eyes are NICE:D hahaha
just came back from tuition, was on youtube watching video for stress relief(:
Britain's Got Talent: Good Evans
heehee. go watch. Elliot is goood!
:D

its quite suprising to read this.

"
The 13-year-old singer, who auditioned as part of family act Good Evans, has undergone eight major operations since he was a baby, according to a report in The Sun.

Estelle Evans said: "Elliot was born with Hirschsprung's disease. It's a lifelong illness. As a baby, he was seriously ill and had a lifesaving operation.

"He's been in hospital an awful lot of times."

The youngster made a big impression on Simon Cowell who predicted that he could go on to become a "superstar".

from: http://entertainment.stv.tv/home/89363-britains-got-talent-star-elliot-suffers-from-bowel-disorder"

"Published: 18 Apr 2009

BRAVE Britain’s Got Talent star Elliot Evans is secretly battling a rare bowel disorder.

The 13-year-old, who wowed judges in his family’s singing group Good Evans, has endured eight major ops since birth.His mum Estelle said yesterday it had been “harrowing” to see him suffer so much. She told TV Biz: “Elliot was born with Hirschsprung’s disease. It’s a lifelong illness. As a baby, he was seriously ill and had a lifesaving operation. He's been in hospital an awful lot of times.”

The disorder hits one in 40,000 people.

from: The Sun

im bored.

200th post.

2009-04-30T12:53:00.003+08:00

:D hello. cant wait till tonight.

speech day today so no school(:
but there's loads of hw.
sighs.

go watch this. its damn cool:D:
Britain's Got Talent: Flawless
Britain's Got Talent: Hollie Steel: 10 yr old ballerina/singer
Britain's Got Talent: Diversity

EZ C Div.

2009-04-28T22:59:00.001+08:00

all the best juniors:D
jiayous(:

"amanda feels like a failure. maybe its because she is."

2009-04-28T18:17:00.004+08:00

Failure? YEAH.

i barely passed bio. and i can say i actually did study. i studied damn hard. i could almost memorise the whole damn chapter. and the thing is that i could actually understand. but then no matter how hard i work, i cant even get the results i want? and chem test, chem prac and physics pop quiz. why?
am i that dumb?

and all this tests keep coming. and every time i get back a test that i am not satisfied with, ill tell myself, ill work harder. but then what happens? even is i study harder, work harder, i cant get the results i want. and the worst thing ptm's in a 2 weeks time. what am i going to tell my parents? will they even understand in the first place? will they even know that ive worked hard and tell me to work harder? or scold me and tell me that i aint good enoug. they'll question me; asking why i couldnt be some kid who aces every test? who have a straight A record and a gpa of 4? just because others can achieve it why cant i?

You are on a pair or rollerblades. you trip over sth and then you fall down. hard. and you've scraped your knee. but you fight back and slowly get back up with your hands supporting you. but every time you managed to stand up straight. somebody comes along and push you down again. and you injure yourself again. again and again. and you've covered bruises and cuts. and you feel that you dont want or have to strength to stand up again. but then you always know you'll have to stand up and start rollerblading again if not you'll always remain in that same exact spot where you've started with. but you dont have any strength or will to carry on.

and that's how i feel when i get back every test. every pop quiz. every assignment.

God, give me the strength to carry on; ive fallen hard.

WHEE:D

2009-04-27T23:14:00.003+08:00

whee:D i changed my blogskin:D
and i finished my essay outline:D
and im feeling extremely accomplished cos i didnt fall asleep/ feel like falling asleep in class:D

-random post. haha. posting just for the sake of posting.

Piano-dog.

2009-04-26T20:11:00.001+08:00

i was trying to relax; feeling too stressed up.
then i ended up watching this on youtube.
its cute>. :D

funny thing is. this videos reminds me of people.

2009-04-26T16:00:00.002+08:00

hello. its been a long long while.
anways, life suck now a days. really.

In school. i feel so stressed. there are a never ending strand of exams. that just keep crashing down over me .and no matter how hard i study, ill never get the results i want. NEVER. every time i try, its like ill never acheive the results i want. its like a heavy baggage ill never be able to get rid of. i really really used to like going to school. but now, school's like a burden. sometimes i dont even get what the teachers are saying. am i that stupid? why am flunking? i never used to get below 80.
now? i cant even say i reached 60. school. school. school.

At home. i get scolded for eveything. i try my best to do all the chores before you're home. so you wont need to scold me. but i always get scolded. no matter what. ill always get scolded.

at church. i feel weird.

and hey, dont ask me anything. just let me rant.

it isnt very nice to keep probbing people when they're upset.

2009-04-23T22:07:00.000+08:00

hello):
ive failed chem.
im not in the mood to say anything.
hope ill pass my maths tmr.
and jys juniors.

2009-04-22T22:02:00.002+08:00

i feel like a failure.
maybe its because i am one.
i cant absorb anything
nothing at all.
what else is there for me to fail?
ive failed chem,bio,phys,chinese already.
4 down 4 to go.

i cant afford to fail anymore.

2009-04-17T00:01:00.004+08:00

hello. finally finished studying bio. got to pass this time.
listed out what we did/ have this and next week. its an alarmingly long list.
its a wonder, i could actually survive this week. miracle.

monday- chinese test part 1
tuesday- chem prac
wednesday- history SEQ.
thurs- chinese test 2 + chinese presentation + language arts presentation + visit to singapore ancient museum
fri- biology test
sat- HSK chinese exam
next week- maths test + chem test

i shall go sleep soon. im tired. average sleeping time this week - 4 hrs.

and my tummy hurts like hell.

2009-04-12T11:02:00.002+08:00

ytd was fun:D churchurchurchurchurchurchurch!
hahaha. will upload the photo's when marc/zara/eli they all send me.

and you. stop it. just stop it.

2009-04-10T23:09:00.001+08:00

hello:D haha. i went to char's house with amandas, and limin.
HER HOUSE IS BIG:D
haha and we ate lots of chips:D sry charmaine for dirtying you room):
but it was fun(:

hais, there's still chengyu and history and chemistry test next week.
im doomed.

cant wait for tmr.

2009-04-05T15:04:00.005+08:00

hello. im alone at home. again.
that's one of the reasons i love sunday.

i guess, a lot of stuff happened ytd.
the history symposium was nice but a little boring though.
listen to all the pro people talk.

and then to yf, led worship. really hoped it was okay.
then when we had to split into the 3 groups to pray.
it was 7 people at first. me, marc, leonard, tim, wen xuan, small marc, and jianyun.
and then zeke came. that made 8.
then we had to hold the person's beside us the hands. so it was zeke and jianyun.
haha jianyun was like " you sure you want to hold me hand? i just sneezed!"
then me and leonard were like eww, then grabbed his wrists, instead of his hands.
then during the prayer he was like trying to shake our hands off.
[after that then we realised he said we held to hard; no blood can go to his hands. LOL!]
yf was quite fun i guess.
and then... worship. service.
i really really hoped it was okay.
and i dont agree, why do you have to do that?

maybe the world just have too many opinions.

2009-04-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

hello.
its been loong.
have you ever felt so lousy?
that you arent ever good enough?
i got that today.
hah, as if it.
you acted nice and kept smiling and all. and then go tell another person some bad stuff about me.
yes, maybe im not that. but whatever you said was very hurting.
its one of the reasons why i dread touching the piano anymore.
it just rake up too much memories. not certainly nice ones too.

maybe; the world has just too many opinions.

2009-03-31T19:50:00.003+08:00

hello:D
maths test was nice:D best maths test in this year, though i had some careless i think):
i think i screwed up viva): i had very little things to talk about that equation):

i was at dhs mail when i came across Xu ZiJia's letter. its quite touching

生命的感动
2008年8月20日，是我生命中一个极不寻常的日子。我去国大医院预约专家门诊做检查，检查的结果让我和我的家人震惊。往日平静的生活被改变了，突如其来的打击使我和我的家人陷入了悲痛之中。看着妈妈伤心地流泪，我只能强忍住泪水来安慰她：我会坚强，我会好起来的！
随着一系列的检查和治疗，疾病带来的痛苦与日俱增。治疗产生的副作用让我难受、呕吐，没胃口，全身无力。更可怕的是口腔溃疡，无法吞咽各种食物。体质变得越来越差，伤口的疼痛也折磨得我苦不堪言。每一天都仿佛是在黑暗里行走，漫长而无助。当我无奈地躺在病床上时，脑海里就会浮想联翩：想以前平常的读书生活，现在看来是多么的幸福和快乐！上课，打球，下棋，与同学学习讨论......。如今，却变成了一种奢侈！往日的生活历历在目，回忆成了我些许的快乐和安慰，而今却一下子掉进了深渊！无助而孤独，恐惧且不安。病魔无情，人间有爱。是老师关心和探望，是同学们的一句句真诚问候与支持，给了我信心和勇气，让我渐渐改变了心情，变得乐观，勇于正视现实，不再逃避，以积极的心态去面对一切挑战！
我是不幸的，同时又是幸运的。在治疗的过程当中，得到了来自社会、学校的很多关怀：老师和同学们积极踊跃地为我捐款，切实解决了我的后顾之忧；CCF的社工为我提供了大量的励志书籍和有关治疗的知识，为我今后的身体保健、饮食习惯的改变提供了依据；MAKE WISHING协会还专门举办了终身难忘的生日派对；老师和同学们常常抽出宝贵的时间来看我，给我带来学校新的资讯的同时，还给我带来了快乐；有的家长还亲自上门送来营养品；老师们更是牺牲休息时间抓紧给我补课；特别是我的班主任Mr.Gi对我的关心和帮助更是无微不至，甚至为方便我去学校，实现我重回学校学习的梦想，让出自己的家，提供给我们住，每天早上来接我上学；现在校长为更加方便我上下学，让我住进学校宿舍......。所有这些让我感受到了人间温暖，在精神上给了我极大的鼓舞和勇气。滴水之恩，当涌泉相报。这些深情厚意已变成一股暖流在身体里涌动，时刻激励着我勇往直前，不畏困难，以微笑来面对明天，我为我是德明一分子而感到自豪。我会努力去上课、补课，把落下的功课尽快补回来，在未来的A水准考试中，尽自己最大努力考出好成绩，以报答关心我支持我的人们，以“诚信勇忠”为宗旨，报答母校——我最挚爱的德明政府中学！真诚地谢谢您，我的老师，我的同学！

I felt really sad when i heard about him. i could understand how much he has suffered. because two years ago, my mom also had cancer. cancer's a scary thing
Just wanted to say that we alll really really hope to see you get better; and jiayous and stay strong.

2009-03-31T00:30:00.002+08:00

hello there.
there's a maths test tmr and maths viva.
im scared):
another reason why im not sleeping yet is because my tummy's bothering me.
i had a light dinner. im hungry...

i feel weird. all i can think now about is maths. nothing else.

headache:O

2009-03-24T00:49:00.002+08:00

hello. its been a long time since i last blog.
its been the first day of school but its already horrendously tiring.
i stayed up til now to finish all the hw. ):
hmm. 4 more days to the weekend.
and im looking forward to training tmr:D
its been loong.

i am feeling sick.

2009-03-21T12:26:00.005+08:00

hello there.
i dint go for training cos i and badly bruised. and have a sore throat and feels like i have fever.
sorry teammaties):
gosh.
im not looking forward to later.
to think of it; it was pretty embarrassing last week crying like that.
im really really sorry; thats one reason im not looking forward till later.
go guess the other reason.

im finally gonna do usher tonight!
which, according to tim, i missed 3 times already.
haha. usher's funn.

and i cant help laughing when i think of the journey back from ubin. and the ben and marcus' you jump i jump photo.
the guys were hilarious.

ptff. ive still got a mountainfull of hw undone.
and holidays are coming to an awful end.
maths- half done. la-not done. chinese-half done. history-not done.chem-half done.
by the looks of it. i didnt accomplish much this holidays. i slept most of it away; ):

DECODE- paramore

How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
I can't win your losing fight
All the time

Nor could I ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here
When I used to know you so well?
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see

What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own

(I'm screaming, I love you so)
On my own
(But my thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well?
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves

How did we get here
When I used to know you so well?
How did we get here
When I used to know you so well?

I think I know
I think I know
There is something I see in you
It might kill me, I want it to be true

UBIN

2009-03-21T00:39:00.005+08:00

hello:D changed my blog skin:D
i like it; its white enough.:D
ubin was fun but tiring.
lesson learnt: never break on slopes else you risk being thrown off your bike.
my left leg's bruised and swollen and right leg's slightly sprained.
argh,

ps.i think im right about it. too bad.

happy birthday to me:D

2009-03-19T00:15:00.004+08:00

hello:D happy birthday to me:D 15 already:D old):hahaha.

thanks for all the birthday wishes(: whether was it through sms or facebook or msn or tags. or just now the bible study:Di really really appreciate them:D

thanks:
jiaqi
yufeng
kelyn
meiyi
jingyan
rynette 4th aunt
chiachia
cherie
venus
lewis
ps david
melissa [junior]
tingyu
limin
elysa
clarisse
big ben
xiao ben
leonard
mitch
meiqin
yienching
jieyu
tessa
jerlyn
sherman
shuqi yeo
wei yu
sarah [senior]
vicky
rennie
huiyun
ailing
shadi
clara
natalie see tong
christina
sophin
rachal lim
taylin
jiamei

sighs. its not my birthday anymore):
i knew you would forget.

you dont mean anything at all.

2009-03-17T23:05:00.002+08:00

haha. i was reading back on my last post. then i realised that it was mainly venting of anger.
i think i only meant like half of it.

im sick of you.

Just tell me why?

2009-03-15T23:40:00.003+08:00

sometimes; i think. maybe life will be better up there in heaven.
sometimes; i really really wished God will take me back home.

life is so screwed. who do you know that you could even trust?
is there anyone out there that's really trustable?
a person that will stand by you? a person who will give you unconditional love?
a person who will stand by you and say "its okay.." no matter what happened?

im sick of pretending. im sick of pretending who i really am.
its really hard to pretend that you're happpy when you are really down.
its hard to comfort and tell a person that everything's gonna be ok when you are not that okay youself.
or when you are angry at them and you'll have to keep it to yourself and try not to show and be nicey nicey.
its really really hard to put up a nice face and tell people that you're okay with everything when you arent.

is it me or is it the world? has everything changed that much?

in school; church; basketball. its really depressing.

in school;its a new class. so we dont really know much of the ppl.
who are they? what are their characters? are they nice or nasty inside? we dont know.
and i dont want to know. Its like sometimes in school; you'll just want to digg a tunnel and bury yourself in it.
people are real nasty. freaking annoying and irritating. you dont even know who you can trust.
who knows what they really really think about you?
It like you are trying to put up a brave and happy face; but inside you are downright scared and afraid of what's gonna happen.

At home. i feel lousy. i feel incapable. and im sick of trying to live up to your expectations. sometimes. its really disheartening to hear your own parent insult you. though you have tried your best. ive been trying to be a good daughter and i really want you all to appreciate it. i really want you all to comfort me when im sad and not rub it in. i want to feel cared for; to feel loved.

I guess losing my phone was the last straw. i was already very upset already; but then it was the factor that trigger this explosion of saddness. my phone was like my best friend; it was the thing i shared a lot of memories with and the one that was with me no matter what. and now its gone. stolen by a stoopid thief. and then; the best part of it all is that my parents didnt even comfort me at all. they scolded me from the moment they found out. and they rubbed it in hard. really hard. and then i realised; my parents had not comforted me since i was in P3; and i doubt they'll ever do that again.

im really really sick of all this stuff. why cant i just let got of everything.
but then; before i started this post; i probably already knew that there's only one answer to all this problems..

That's God.

imy.

2009-03-15T11:11:00.002+08:00

i miss my phone.

CHAR and JIAMEI(:

2009-03-13T00:43:00.005+08:00

hello:D im tired but i dont feel like sleeping:O though its lateee.
haha. went out with jiamei and char just now:D no school! yayyy.

it was funn.:D

historyhistoryhistory:D!

2009-03-11T22:38:00.001+08:00

haha; our history class:D totally loves:D

haha. Mr Chua smil until like very happy.

our whole class wil miss you after you have gone):

you're a great teacher:D

life.

2009-03-09T23:44:00.001+08:00

hello:D
im soo tired of everything.
life is full of unanswered questions.
and weird shit that we cant solve.

you jump, i jump.

2009-03-07T22:42:00.003+08:00

hey, finally back.
almost died from exhaustion during flag day, but over all, its ok bah:D
haha.
but then, i lost my jacket:O
hmm. ytd swimming was funny, with the jumping thing:D
"you jump i jump"
hahahahahah. quite scary.
church.
was okay, though i was tired.
nice talking to you caroline:D
spare me, i dont want to end up crying everytime.

teststeststests):

2009-03-05T23:21:00.004+08:00

i just finished my physics revision!:D
haha. im tired but i cant sleep. AGAIN.

B GIRLS:D

2009-03-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

im so screwed.

2009-03-04T01:14:00.005+08:00

feeling much better today; though i have a feeling i screwed chinese test.
there's bio tmr; dunno whether ill fail it:D better not.
osmosis and diffusion and cells. arent that hard i guess.
but who noes.
i just finished the seniors cards. dead tired but sleep. sighs.

im looking forward to the march holis. guess. :D

100 chengyu:D-FINISHED!

2009-03-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

whee. i feel so accomplished:D haha. i finished chaoing my 100 chengyu+meaning:D
my handwriting's tweeny tiny:D and mom hates it. hahahahha. but then, the smaller the better:D haha.

MY TWO PAGES WORTH OF 100 CHENGYU! i cant stop looking at it:D i think it's pretty:D

anyways, here are some photo i have yet to upload. haha. my cousin's first birthday!

his cake! it looks nice but doesnt taste that great.

my other funny cousin who wants to drink from the bottle thats even bigger then his body. hahaha!

he walks around the whole room holding the bottle:D v cute!

A pic i took with chia on the mrt to the LA play. we arent zhilian okay, we are just amused by the cabin that has no seats! LOL.XD

end of post:D this week's loaded with tests.

ESCAPE:D

2009-03-02T00:24:00.002+08:00

a picture speaks a thousands words:D
but then.

i am the wallpaper.

2009-03-01T09:37:00.003+08:00

hello. i havent been posting for a while.
guess its cos there's nothing for me to post about.
church was okay ytd, but then think i screwed up worship rehearsal.
but then i guess it turned out okay in the end.
got to go to yf, jianyun's damn funny.haha.
:D anyways, im going escape later. im scared.

tonight.

2009-02-24T22:56:00.003+08:00

hellos:D
i dint fail after all. but then, its 15.5.
hmm. im looking forward to the weekend.
:D church. training. movie(?) escape theme park (?)
i cant sleep after that scary embalming video which is not censored at all.
argh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TINGYU AND NATASHA!

Empty.

2009-02-23T19:26:00.006+08:00

hello.
i dont feel like blogging now a days.
i dont find the need to cos' ive nth to post about.

"Tonight" by FM STATIC
I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

failed.

2009-02-19T22:41:00.003+08:00

gosh. i cant believe im actually letting myself be sooo miserable about a stoopid maths CT 1.
~~cos deep down inside, i know if i dont pass this test, i wont pass the others too.~~
someone help me;
gahhh. there's still LA compre test tmr. and i already failed one.

im feel like such a failure.

sleepy head.

2009-02-19T00:48:00.004+08:00

i bet i flunked it.
wait, edit/ im very sure i flunked it.
so its gonna go back to the same thing, no yf, no outings.
unless i manage to pass this one, and get at least an a for overall.
god, help me. i dont want to fail, AGAIN.

i couldnt sleep. ended up crying cos of dunno what reason.
i really dun want to fail. pls.
i am sadsadsadddd.

2009-02-16T00:05:00.002+08:00

hello:D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA:D
though its 3 mins late. heehee. you're older then me liao(:
have a fabulous fifteen then(:
cheers~

thanks, really.it helped.

2009-02-15T15:16:00.001+08:00

hello. i decided to change my skin again.
cos im bored, tired and sad.
but dont ask me the reason why im sad.
i wont tell you:D

2009-02-14T23:46:00.003+08:00

its fourteen of february.
happy valentines day.
enjoy the last 13 mins of it~

2009-02-13T01:58:00.003+08:00

hello:D

haha. its soo latee now, a little freaky staying up alone.

but then at least i finished my cards(: yay.
hahahaha.
there's a history test today, nope. i dint study:D
lols. im bored. i cant sleep. im having stomachache.
today's friendship day, Valentine's day.

2009-02-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

hello:D thanks marcus!!! for helping me with the mad scientist role. was searching like crazy.. :D
heehee. thanks tim too, for being backup(:
im bored and tired. and feeling weird.
maybe..

you arent lying after all.

ps, my nose's weird. i keep smelling the smells i smelt in the chem lab.):
sulphur+chlorine+carbondioxie+ammonia= choking.

2009-02-10T20:27:00.002+08:00

im desperate already. i need a guy for idmi. i need help from a guy to help us film the mad scientist part. i need a guy who i can work with cos' im the person you're suppose to kill.
someone help me. maybe that's one of the reason why having only one guy in your class arent good, cos there arent guys to play the guy parts. pttff.

2009-02-09T18:40:00.000+08:00

hellllo:D haha, im tired.....): ive still got tuition later, but then, i havent finished the hw. cos, lets see, cos im lazy and tired and busy. sian. 4 more days till the weekend.
): 4 more 4more 4 more 4 more.
i cant wait.

ive got 7/10 for maths quizzzzzzz! argh. i hope my mom let me go yf now, but then, chances are lowww.

i like dragging my words:D

2009-02-06T22:49:00.002+08:00

hello:D
just came back from swimming.
hah aug im taller then you lor. ill grow taller:D
haha, nah la, i doubt i ever gow taller one, at most 2-3 cm.
wheee. im going amanda cheach's house tmr!
yay:D
hahahahahahhaha
hope, hope, hope, i ll be able to make it for yf.
but then, my mom):
so let see what tmr then.

something's wrong, i know it.

2009-02-04T19:35:00.003+08:00

Wheee:D ive got my own laptop:D
it isnt that great, but then, at least its better then nothing(:
2 more days till the weekend. i cant wait.

school's getting beter; its fun-ner now. amanda chia and cheah's funny. and im starting to like maths more:D goooody. there's chem practical tmr. lets hope it'll go fine, cos afterall....

heard from elaine/jialing that dunman high's got the most no of suicide cases cos we were talking about the indian man that dropped off the building. scary.
maybe its because we are way toooo stressed):

hmm. i think i screwed chinese test. the chengyu though i noe how to do, but my answers a little weird, plus there's a few words i dunno how to write.

hrphm. sometimes how i wished everyday would be a holiday;(

last match against anglican tmr. *sighs*
hope yingshenglaoshi's doing well in brisbane.hmm.

i still cant believe it.

2009-02-03T21:45:00.001+08:00

非你莫屬
作詞：陳信延　作曲：Tank

懂得讓我微笑的人　再沒有誰比你有天份
輕易闖進我的心門　明天的美夢你完成

整個宇宙　浩瀚無邊的盡頭　每顆渺小星球　全都繞著你走

愛我　非你莫屬　我只願　守護　由你給我的幸福　
愛我　非你莫屬　也許會　笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦

懂得讓我流淚的人　給的感動一定是最深
在我心中留下傷痕　你同時點亮了星辰

看　那麼多相遇　偏偏只和你　天造地設般產生奇蹟
哦　我心的縫隙　我想除了你　任誰也無法填補這空虛

但那人是你所以　不怕苦

2009-02-02T21:58:00.000+08:00

farewells, ill miss you ying sheng lao shi. ):

God bless.

2009-02-02T19:40:00.001+08:00

visitation was okay i guess.
school hw's piling up. gosh. i just finished my jiabao, argh.
i found out sth that i probably shouldnt have found out.

2009-01-30T00:10:00.002+08:00

hello:D latest ive ever blog. haha. i cant sleep plus i've got a lot of hw to complete:D
lols, but anyways...

PICTURES ON VISITATION TO JEREMY'S HOUSE FOR CNY!

2009-01-28T19:56:00.001+08:00

im damn frightened. my two annoying brothers go put some cockcroach on my pillow, now super scared. screamed my head off. dont ever think of asking me for help ever again. would you like it if i did that to you? damn it.

2009-01-27T22:48:00.003+08:00

hello:D tmr's back to school.
hw's undone. including maths. though ive got all th method's out, jsut havent wrote it down):
all the rough working's messy.
hmm.
this year's chinese new year just dont feel like chinese new year.
and i just tested some milk for my mom, see if its spoilt.
hope it isnt if not ill be dead. :D deadier then you amanda chia(: haha
stop it. just stop it. i hate your moodswings.
//i dropped my heart-shaped lollipop on the ground and it cracked.//

2009-01-25T11:27:00.001+08:00

and happy birthday to you ANN :D

2009-01-25T11:24:00.001+08:00

hello:D
the pitiful 2 days of holi are piled with hw. ):
but nvm, happy chinese new year:D

2009-01-21T21:28:00.002+08:00

my throats hurts like hell.
i think im losing my voice.
sighs, im a sad person.

2009-01-20T22:33:00.004+08:00

hello:D
haha. im bored.
waiting for amanda chia to send me the stuff,
and yup ACE isnt that fun afterall. lol.
its hard and difficult:D
haha, but still. its interesting.

sighs. school's getting more and more stressful.
its not even 1 month yet and my notes are like 3 inches thick?
gosh.
there's a match tmr, a crucial one too.
im nervous. :/

And i know i'll be okay
though my skies are turning gray.

2009-01-18T21:12:00.001+08:00

hello. sighs. 1 more zuo wen to go.
~~sometimes, i feel that im nearly out of strength to carry on.~~

2009-01-14T21:59:00.002+08:00

heehee. got tagged by dylan to do this quiz. hai, got a match tmr. im nervous.

ME
First Name : amanda
Nickname : ama!
Name you wish you had : everything that i wished i had:D
What do people normally mistake your name as : hmm. amanda's such a common name.
Birthday : 18/03/1994 :
Birthplace : singapore
Time of Birth : midnight? somewhere there.
Single or taken : single lar. of course.

Your Appearance-
How tall are you : 161-2-3? {i noe im short):}
wish you were taller : yea of course. i want 5 cms more.
Eye color : brownish black
Eye color you want : green. brown. grey. dark. blue.
Natural Hair color : brownish, black
Current Hair color : browish black, but a little lighter thanks to the stupid chlorine.
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color : no!
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair : last year youth day. heehee. they sprayed my hair glitter gold!
Glasses or contacts : dunno. heehee. ive got both.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Choose 10 ppl to do the quiz :

1.zara

2.kelyn

3.cherie

4.dylan! :D hahah i tagged you back.

5.Jingyan

6.Shan ping

7.jen

8.clara

9.mich

10.gloria

Who is 6 having a relationship with? {SP}
she's single i think. but im sure its GOD:D

Is 9 male or female? {MICH}
female lar.

Would it be a good thing if 7 and 10 are together? {JEN AND GLORIA}
they'll be friends.
What is 2 studying about? {KEL}
sec 3 stuff!

When was the last time u had a chat with 1? {ZARA}
last sat?

What kind of music does 8 like? {CLARA}
music i like:D

Does 1 have any siblings? {ZARA}
yup. zoe, zora, zane and zeke

Would you woo 3? {CHERIE}
OF COURSE :D. nah. jk. but she's a gd sister & fren.

How about 4? {DYLAN}
nope. he's attached.

Is 7 single? {JEN}
i think so ;D

What's 5 surname? {JINGYAN}
CHENG! same as me. hahahhahahaha.

What's 10 hobby? {GLORIA}
volleyball?

Where is 2 studying at? {KEL}
wrss:D

State a casual comment about 9. {MICH}
oreo oreo oreo:D

Where does 6 live? {SHANPING}
a few blocks away from me(:

What is 4 favourite colour? {DYLAN}
i dunno leh.

Are 1 and 5 best frens? haha dont know [ZARA AND JY}
They dun noe each other.

Does 1 have any pets? Dont think so. {ZARA}
i doubt so.

Is 7 the sexiest person in the world? {JEN}
hmm.

done. gosh. i still havent done my hw.. byebye:D

2009-01-13T21:14:00.002+08:00

hello!
im feeling hyper.
hahaha.
we won ytd:D *smiles*
and nana was really funny(: heehee.
anyways, school really quite stressful nowadays.
hectic.
hahha.
anyways, i gotta go bathe.
byebyee..
:D

2009-01-11T15:08:00.001+08:00

gosh. blame it on my carelessness.
woke up at 10, groggily took out the soybean milk in my fridge to drink.
turns out its expired.
argh. my stomach hurts.

2009-01-11T12:25:00.008+08:00

im rushing my HCL holi hw. argh.
someone help me. it isnt easy to 400words reflection;
sighs.
im stressed.
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go figure. haha.

2009-01-09T21:44:00.002+08:00

i really miss 2E. i was never really attached to the class, but hai, ren jiu shi zhe yang de, always only xi qu le cai dong de zheng xi.
i miss every single person in 2E.
only i could return to 2008.

ill upload the picturs of 2008 2enive' another time. its taking way too long. ):

棒棒堂-我们之间
这一段时间有着什么样的画面
喜怒哀乐全写在日记里面
发现每一页全都是经典
所有故事都值得纪念

现实的考验我们说好一起面对
不管多久多远绝对不喊累
期待彼此更美好的明天
我们说好谁也不放弃谁

手牵着手(连成线最紧密的圆圈)
肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)
深呼吸做你最高的堡垒
风吹过的海边
雨水下过的季节
让我好想念

我们之间不会有改变
相同的起点一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间转了一大圈
相同的终点会发现
所有的心愿会实现

现实的考验我们说好一起面对
不管多久多远绝对不喊累
期待彼此更美好的明天
我们说好谁也不放弃谁

手牵着手(连成线最紧密的圆圈)
肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)
深呼吸做你最高的堡垒
风吹过的海边
雨水下过的季节
让我好想念

我们之间不会有改变
相同的起点一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间转了一大圈
相同的终点会发现
所有的心愿会实现
我们之间不会有改变
相同的起点一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间转了一大圈
相同的终点会发现
所有的心愿会实现
我们之间oh~
一瞬間变成了乐园
我们之间转了一大圈
相同的终点会发现
所有的心愿会实现

2008-12-29T21:42:00.002+08:00

hello:D
hahahahha. school's gonna start in 3 more days.
im stressed.
with hw undone and first day of school stress,
i really dunno what to do.
guess i better finish all my hw. which is sooooo hard.
haha. im still thinking that im in sec 2. lol.
gosh. crap. im talking crap. maybe cos im too bored? haha.
had some 602 garthering today, which only 6 people attended.
bedtime's stories' nice. and i just realised how much i missed 602.
all the crazy and funny times.
*sighs* how i wished im still p6,
time passes sooo fast.

2008-12-25T23:23:00.001+08:00

merry christmas. haha. night tour was okay i guess. but its just.. its a pity time passes so fast. *sighs* thanks lewis for the great party. update more tmrw. dont feel like posting much now.

2008-12-23T20:50:00.003+08:00

finally watched FACING THE GIANTS last sat.
FINALLY. hahahaha cos i dint go for day camp.
there's this part in the movie that spoke to me :D
the part where Mr. Bridges (a holy man whose been walking around in front of student’s lockers, praying for students) storms in Coach Taylor’s office and quotes verses from the bible.

Coach Taylor : (Surprised) Mr. Bridges!

Mr. Bridges : Revelation Chapter 3 says: We serve a God that opens doors that no one can shut, and he shuts doors that no one can open.

He says: Behold, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and not denied my name.

Coach Taylor, the Lord is not through with you yet. You still have an open door here, and until the Lord moves you, you’re to bloom right where you’re planted…

I just felt led to come and tell you that today. (leaves the office)

really really loved that movie.
haha. anyways, merry christmas ppl:D 2 more days!

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. -Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA(:

2008-12-22T12:22:00.003+08:00

hello. im feeling awful. terrible.
i cant breathe and my throat's sore.
and im starting to cough.
gosh.
but i cant wait for later:D
heehee.
anyways, happy birthda melissa, hope you'll like the present(:

2008-12-21T22:53:00.002+08:00

i miss camp. i really do. anyways, here the pics to the yf camp 2008'
christmas service in 3 days time.
& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. MELISSA:D

2008-12-18T20:08:00.003+08:00

i havent cried so much in such a long time.
i feel heavy.
i learnt a lot in this camp.
ive grown closer to God.
but ive learnt more abt my brothers and sisters.
i feel light and heavy at the same time.

and, ive leant that words hurt more then you think they do.

2008-12-14T22:44:00.005+08:00

im going to go off for church camp tmrw:D
wonder whose group im in.
cant wait.
hahaha
but i havent finished my hw.
i really hope it everything's gonna be fine for the next few days.

2008-12-10T18:18:00.001+08:00

i hate liars, including you.
~~though it was harmless lie.~~

2008-12-09T22:22:00.002+08:00

i am bored. just came back from prayer meeting. :D its nice. spent the whoel day at CI. we finished by 1.and ate lunch at 130. got back to CI and slacked. we played monkey, watch miss swan, played cards, paster david showed us MJ's Dangerous the videos. after that we played cards and z and timo played com.mostly, we just spent our time slacking.
decided to do this quiz cos i was bored.

Name: Cheng Jia Hui Amanda
Shoe size: 8
Height: 164
Where do you live: Singapore, serangoon north ave 4 #06-446 S'pore 551506
Favourite drinks: TEA!
Have you ever -
Been on a plane: Yeah
Fallen asleep at school: countless.
Broken someone's heart: not sure
Fell off your chair: yup. when i was young.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: YES.
Saved e-mails: nah.

What is your room like: v messy.
The last thing you ate: tomyam ramen.
Ever had chicken pox: when i was 5?
Sore throat: yesStitches: No.
Broken nose: nope
Do you believe in love at first sight: not sure...
Like picnics: not really. maybe if they arent ants and insects around.
Who was/were the last person/people you danced with: Neetha. vicky's sis.
Last made you smile: er. i cant rmbr but i laughed a lot when we were playing bridge just now at CI.
You last yelled at: my brothers. i think.

Today did you -
Talk to someone you like: frens.
Kiss anyone: Nah.
Get sick: YES. i was telling elysa i wasnt sick. cos both she and zeke caught some flu. but then when we were in the middle of worship i started getting blocked nose and itchy throat. and after the whole prayer meeting i starting coughing.
Talk to an ex: I dun have one, lol!
Miss someone: yea. i miss the whole enive!
Eat: yes.
Best feeling in the world: knowing that God loves you?
Do you sleep with stuffed animals:yea.
Who do you really hate: hmm. no comments :D
What time is it now?: 10.30 pm
Random -
Is there a person who is on your mind now: yes.
Do you have any siblings: 2 brothers.
Do you want children: maybe.
Do you smile often: hmm. im not sure. i cant see it when i smile.
Do you like your hand-writing: ok lar.
Are your toe nails painted: no.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: NO ONE's.
What color shirt are you wearing now: red shrit.
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: erm.. i cant rmbr.

I can't wait till: church camp, twillight, outing with kel and zara, christmas service and night tour.
Are you a friendly person: hmm. ive been told im cold.
Do you have any pets: nah. mom dun allow.
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: dun ask me. im not sure. NO COMMENTS:D
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: cant rmbr i held hands with who.
Do you sleep with the TV on?: noooo.
What are you doing right now?: this quiz.
Have you ever crawled through a window?: nope.
Are you too forgiving?: maybe.
Are you closer to your mother or father?: I think mum(:
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: cant rmbr.
How many people can you say you've really loved?: a lot.
Do you eat healthy?:yea i think so. my mom went organic so the whole family too.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: I dun even have one-.-
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: YES>
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: dunno. depends on my mood. most likely are people who i normally talk to on the phone.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: loud. but it depends on my mood.
Are you confident?: nah.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1.go to nursery
2.eat
3. sleep
4. go church
5. carry my baby brothers.

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. go CI.
2. prayer meeting
3. i dont have that much stuff to fill this up.

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. chips.
2. Haagen-Daz ice cream!:D
3. mark and spencer's biscuits.
4. chocolate
5. sweets and more sweets.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. bring my family on a holiday
2. SHOP!
3. erm. get myself the stuff i want.
4. save it up
5. charity

5 of my bad habits:
1. bitting fingernails
2.talk to fast.
3. procrastinate
4. sleeping to much
5. talking on the phone too much

5 places I have lived in:
1. singapore
2. serangoon.
3. err. ?

5 jobs I've had:
non(:

2008-12-08T19:47:00.004+08:00

tagged by mich to do this quiz...

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged as to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Breath-paramore

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
intro-ashley tisdale

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
addicted to me-the click five

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
something else- good charlotte

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
all at once-the fray

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
me,you and my medication

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
through glass-stone sour

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
stay together-jennifer lopez

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
we'll be together-ashley tisdale

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
bombay-timbaland

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
how you remind me-nickelback

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
everyday-hsm2

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
second chance-hillsongs united

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
crush crush crush-paramore

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
love me-collin raye

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
good day-the click five

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
over it-ashley tisdale

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
fences-paramore

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
im getting over you-the click five.

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
what the world will never take- hillsongs united

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
hold it dont drop it-jennifer lopez

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
keep holding on -avril lavigne

10 friends to do tagged to do this quiz
1.meli
2.feli
3.clara
4. jen
5.kel
6.zara
7.cherie
8.mitch:D
9.jy
10. dylan

"I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
-For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic [Paramore]"

2008-12-07T21:46:00.002+08:00

just came back from grandma's house.
and im bored. just bored. though ive got tons of hw to do.
and bye jy, bon voyage too, ill have 1 less person to emo too :D haha

lols. gtg. mom wants me to bathe now.

Sentosa trip with cancer center and J&J

2008-12-07T14:02:00.005+08:00

heavy post. all the pics of the sentosa trip with the cancer center and J&J.

the christmas spirit

2008-12-07T13:19:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

2008-12-07T12:45:00.002+08:00

i am bored. stuck at home slacking. cant go out cos my mom wont quit nagging about my uncomplete hw that i cant complete cos i dunno how to do.

ytd church was kinda rush for me. rushed all the way from 5th aunt's house to yishun. i ran all the way from the mrt to church. and i was 30 MIN LATE. argh. thank god i still managed to get there in time.

i changed my blogskin again, added more links and a longer profile. but dun bother reading it cos its kind of crappy.

things im looking forward to:
1. YOUTH CAMP!!!!
icantwaiticantwaiticantwaiticantwaiticantwaiticantwait

2. CHRISTMAS & night tour!!

3. meet up with kel and zara!
(: i cant wait too

4. watch twillight!
!!!1

2008-12-01T21:30:00.002+08:00

cant wait for christmas. arhhhhhhh. im bored. attempted to do the maths questions hw. but its hard. or maybe cos im rusty alrdy. arggggghhhhhhhhhhhh.
shall keep this post short cos i cant find anything to blog about.

2008-11-30T21:04:00.005+08:00

:D i like this song's lyrics. its nice.

Your Guardian Angel. [The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus]

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

2008-11-30T20:50:00.003+08:00

today was okay i guess. just a little tiring cos of the travelling.
late ytd night [1230] was told that the church people were playing today and was asked if i wanted to join in. so i went.
zeke,vicky,yingshenglaoshi,ben,and goupeng and a new fren came. meiqin and tommy also joined us after that.
haha. we played soccer {i used my hands} and bball. haha. lol
not bad. just that i cant play soccer.
off we went to causeway point to eat lunch. [saw a poor boy scald himself ):]
with yingshenglaoshi, ben and zeke.
after that, yingshenglaoshi said he go off and shop on his own. ben went home cos he was sick.supposed to leave for lewis's house, but he was still at chinatown for some leg stuff.so we stayed at causewaypoint and walk around. for 1 and a half hour. walked till damn tired then went to macs to sit down; after that we left for lewis's house.
took to chuo chu kang and then the lrt.
decided to take one big round cos we had so much time. it was like only 215, and lewis' be home at 3. the train track's quite cool, so many turns till it feels like we are on a roller coaster. lewis called us just when we reached. thank goodness we din take another round. haha. played piano and xbox[the 2 guys].
stayed like for 45 min and then when to somerset to meet mom and family. cos she wanted to shop. took 190 there. and its FAST! hahahahahha.
ate at ivins and went back home.
gosh, im tired.

2008-11-29T23:46:00.006+08:00

just came back from church. today was ok i guess. just that training's v tough.

a quiz i ripped from bc's blog cos im too bored. and i cant sleep. and there's nth else i can do and no one to call.

75 Questions You've Probably Never Been Asked

Take this survey
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Hair

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
hmm yellow. but considering 80% of my shirts are hoodies, i love all of them(:

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
cant remember who that person is, but most probably be my mom, so yes.

4.Do you plan outfits?
sometimes. depends on mood.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
err. weird. empty.

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
my shirt.

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
?

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
no comment. but i think was the one i woke up crying cos i dreamt my brother only got 198 for psle.

9. Did you meet anybody new today?
nope.

10. What are you craving right now?
nth. i feel like vomitting.

11. Do you floss?
yea.

12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
er. the colours green and white.

13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
?

14. Are you emotional?
i dunno. but ive been told that i am.

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
no.

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
i cant remember.

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
lick. ive got sensitive teeth.

18. Do you like your hair?
NO

19. Do you like yourself?
:D yes.

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
i think so.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
what's that?

22. What are you listening to right now?
nth.

23. How many countries have you visited?
4 or 5. i cant remember.

24. Are your parents strict?
quite.

25. Would you go sky diving?
NO. im scared of heights. i bet ill be screaming before i even jumped.

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
n0. i prefer obama. hahhaha. lols.

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
no. that's a complete waste of nice potatoes for me to eat.

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
hmm. no.

29. Have you ever been in a castle?
nope. but i want to be in one one day.

30. Do you rent movies often?
no.

31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
er. yuchen.

32. Have you made a prank phone call?
when i was p5.

33. Do you own a gun?
no.

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
yea.

35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
no one. i just came back from church.

36. Brown or white eggs?
dunno. but white seems cleaner.

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
no.

38. Ever been on a train?
yes.

39. Ever been in love?
NO COMMENTS :D

40. Do you have a cell-phone?
yes. and i love it.

41. Are you too forgiving?
dunno. not really.

42. Do you use chap stick?
?

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
dunno.

44. Can you use chop sticks?
yes.

45. Ever have cream puffs?
they are nice.

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
no. whats that.

47. What was the last question you asked?
er. "can call you later?"

48. What was the last CD you bought?
cant remember.

49. Boys or girls?
duno.

50. What is your bus number for school?
?

51. Is your hair curly?
yea. and i dun like it.

52. Last time you cried?
er. no comments.

53. Ever walked into a wall?
yes.

54. Do looks matter?
sometimes.

55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
no.

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
yes.

57. Favorite time of the year?
my birthday.

58. Favorite color?
black, white. depends on my mood.

59. Are you sarcastic?
sometimes. depends on my mood.

60. Do you have any tattoos?
no, and i will never have one.

61. The last person you held hands with?
er. as in? cant remember. but... heeheehee:D

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
no. i dun have a teevee in my room

63. Where was your default picture taken at?
?

64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
yes.

65. Do you like your life right now?
duuno.

66. How often do you talk on the phone?
a lot. about 2 or 3 times a day. or do you want me to count the hours? about 2+ hours per day.

67. What is your favorite animal?
dog.

68. What was the most recent thing you bought?
my new shoes!

69. Do you have good vision?
do you call 800 degree good vision?

70. Can you hula hoop?
yea.

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
maybe. depends on what he or she cheated on.

72. Do you have a job?
nope

73. Can you handle the truth?
maybe. but most of the time the truth's hurting.

74. What are you wearing?
red shirt and pants.

75. Have you ever crawled through a window?
yes. :D

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2008-11-28T21:51:00.003+08:00

i just came back from swimming.
and sth happened. v scary.
ws was complaining that he was feeling uncomfortable during swimming.
jy told him to stop but he said no.
then after that mr loo told him to stop.
he came up, coughed, vomitted, and then went unconscious.
they called the ambulance but it din arrived till 15 min later which was damn slow.
argh. im afraid. ws dont really look good.

{/EDIT
:D weisheng woke up liao. just called jeremey, he said ws woke up liao but now still feel a little tired. i think its because he went for 2 camps this week and only sleep 16 hours in total. oh man. im so happy he's better now.
EDIT/}

2008-11-28T13:57:00.003+08:00

haha. long time never post liao. din feel the need to.
haha; lol.
have been thinking a lot these few days.
is it worth it?
should i even care?
argh.
my head's full of unanswered question. someone tell me the answers pls.

ive got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud.
and it makes no sense at all.

2008-11-26T20:59:00.002+08:00

should i be worrying?

2008-11-21T23:09:00.004+08:00

hello. got tagged by dylan to do this quiz. lol. :D

1. My friends are nice:D

2. I am listening to the sound of the fan.

3. Maybe I should learn to be less hot tempered and emotional.

4. I love.. GOD, family, friends, my piano, my phone, the computer, church. :)

5. My plan: to spend my holiday wisely.

6. I dont understand you.

7. I lost a lot of stuff.

8. People say i am weird.

9. I am missing CIOH, ENIVE, CHURCH.

10. Love means its unconditional. [or sth like that. lol]

11. Somewhere , someone is doing their quiet time. [ this made me extremely guilty cos i havent done mine. i promise ill do it by 12 :D ]

12. I am always searching for my handphone. cos i always seem to lose it.

13. Forever seems nice? or maybe fake.

14. I never want to have dropped my phone into the toliet bowl.

15. My mobile phone is nice:D

16. When I wake up in the morning wishing i could sleep somemore.

17. I get annoyed when people try to boss me around, lie, backstab, or try to act great when they arent.

18. Parties are nice.

19. Hugs or kisses ? hmm. dunno. depends on my mood.

20. Today i accompanied my brothers to their badminton competition and went for swimming after that.

21. Tomorrow i will have training followed by yf and then church.

22. I really want a lot of stuff.

23. I am bored.

24. What is your phone brand ? sony erricson

25. What are the last three digits of your phone number ? 061

26. What does the second message in your inbox say ? "U going yf tmr" -small marcus.

27. Who was the last person you rang ? zeke.

28. Who was the last missed call from ? jen.

29. What does the oldest messenge in your inbox says ? "hey guys we're meeting at one at campus impact to discuss cioh:) tell me if you can make it k?" -cherie

30. Who comes up after " J " ? Jeremy.

31. Go to your sent messages - what does the tenth message say ? i delete my sent msgs.

32. Who is your network provider ? singtel.

33. How many messages are there in your inbox ? 247

34. Who do you have on speed dial three ? my dad.

35. If you are on prepaid card , how much credits do you have ? i dont use prepaid. or, i cant afford to.

36. Who's the first person who comes up after "C" ? cassandra

37. What do you have as your main ring tone ? cai hong - jaychou

38. Pass this quiz to ten people.

dylan
jingyan
clara
jen
kel
zara
mitch
cherie
shanping
jianming

its late already. better sleep. must do qt first. got training tmrw *gasps*. im worried.

2008-11-20T20:37:00.005+08:00

hello. feeling randomn now.:D i miss CIOH.it seems like its just ytd. lol. so i shall post about it. cos ive got nothing else to post. spent the whole day accompanying my brothers for badminton competition. and joshua got back his PSLE results today. not very good; i would rather not talk about it.

-start of 16/11/2008-
CIOH was quite fun i guess.
though i was helping tim's group.
haha was supposed to be in charge of the game "big target" with zeke and small marc.- i think. dont think it standardised though.
it was a simple game but lots of ppl played.
we had toliet rolls and cups stuck onto the side of the table and then the player had to roll the ping pong balls into the toliet roll or cups.
halfway, zeke ran off to who-knows-where, {i think he went to ply the syn} and then suddenly small marc disappeared too.
i had to pick the balls, collect the coupons, count the shots, give out the presents.alone. but its okay lar i think. i could manage.
lol. then after that tim, marc and marc and leo's sis came over to help. then it became better.
haha. didnt really attend the lucky draw, was helping to pack up outside. btws, playing with ice water on a hot day underneath a HDB void deck is funfunfun. lols.
after lunch, which was {macs} the paster dav ordered, we went to zara's house. zoe and friends left half way to go to small marc's house leaving me and zara.
i played the piano at her house, then we talked for 1 hour remembering the funny times we had in the previous camps. [we missed you kelyn] then we watch some movie i dont know how to spell, till zeke came home. accompanied zara to buy dinner and off i went to expo for some crocs sale that my mom want to go to.
reached home at about 10 20? then bathed and did qt !haha:D
- end of sun 16/11/08-